Let’s talk about… Postpartum Depression.
I know I am not the ONLY Woman out there whose going through, or has gone through this! So why aren’t we talking about PPD more openly?
No one ever really talks about it…and somehow it’s become a taboo subject. Well; I’m going to be real with you right now… I have postpartum depression!…
THERE I SAID IT!
To be honest with you, it’s a diagnosis that I’ve really struggled with, until recently… I met with a wonderful doctor who totally opened my eyes to my condition. I don’t know about you but, when I found out I was pregnant I was pumped; and I NEVER THOUGHT IN A MILLION YEARS I would later join the 1 in 7 women suffering from postpartum depression. I’ve never been a sad person, even in the worse circumstances I try to find the good. (I like to look for the silver lining.) But; Postpartum Depression is one of those things I think EVERY woman thinks won’t happen to them. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?
This diagnosis DOES NOT MAKE YOU A CRAZY PERSON!
So I am going to RIP OFF THE BAND-AID…and admit to you that after my diagnosis at 4 weeks postpartum; I have totally been in denial.
I experienced the extreme lows of literally crying to myself for no reason, from sunrise to sunset. I also was a victim of panic attacks, and anxiety to the point where I COULD NOT sleep. When night time rolled around, it was like a wave of panic and anxiety slapped me in the face! (you know that whole “sleep when baby sleeps”… ya, NOT THIS GIRL! I was so worried about SIDS, or that he would wake up ANY SECOND.) I just chalked it up to be the well known “baby blues.”
I LOVE Working in the health field BUT unfortunately it seems that we tend to push our own symptoms to the side. I think because we are so used to taking care of others. LETS BE REAL GUYS; WE MAKE THE WORST PATIENTS!
Anyways…after being diagnosed by my son’s pediatrician, ( Who BTW is AMAZING, he called me and did a screening over the phone because he sensed something was up with me.) I was prescribed an antidepressant to help level out my serotonin levels. ( Meanwhile at home; I took it as prescribed for about a month. I finally felt less hopeless and that I was actually getting this mom thing down!)
So…..I did exactly what you’re NOT SUPPOSED TO DO….I stopped taking my medication.
I thought I was all better, and that I was back to myself again! (I know, I know, silly girl.) JUST AN FYI… DO NOT DO THIS! LIKE I SAID…I was in denial about my diagnosis. In my head, having this diagnosis made me a failure. BUT….I finally had a recent breakdown on our family vacation, it opened my eyes to the reality of my situation.
I finally realized; for Me to be a good Mom…I needed to take care of myself!
I saw a Doctor a few weeks later…He said something that really resonated with me….Postpartum Depression is not a disability, or a permanent condition. Remember that your brain is an organ. People never seem to talk about this; but, its just like a diabetic patient needing to take insulin. Just like the pancreas being unable to properly produce insulin; your brain is struggling to regulate your serotonin levels. Because your brain is experiencing intense hormone fluctuations, such as decreased serotonin levels; it needs help regulating this chemical.
This was the first time a doctor TRULY explained postpartum depression to me. (Being in the medical field you have to learn all about the different organ systems, so it all kind of clicked for me.)
THIS WAS MY AHA MOMENT! IT ALSO MADE ME FEEL LESS LIKE A CRAZY PERSON !
He went on to say…
Your bodies Hormones are out of whack, and the medication that you were prescribed helps support your Brain function in production of the chemical Serotonin. ( SO YOU’RE NOT JUST TAKING A “HAPPY” PILL) The Medication helps prevent any further breakdown of Serotonin in the Brain, and allows your Hormones to “even out.” BUT, In order for you to maintain “normal” levels, you need to continue to produce the chemical which is not going to happen if you don’t EXCEPT THE DIAGNOSIS. If You’re always looking for a different reason, or excuse for how you’re feeling; then you set yourself up for a longer recovery. You need to face and treat the problem head on. Medication paired with counseling, allows you to help your brain heal, and get passed your diagnosis of Postpartum Depression.
At 6 months Postpartum I have finally excepted being 1 in 7 women with PPD!
I NO LONGER want to brush it under the rug, or shrug things off. Because I Now realize, “I NEED TO FILL UP MY CUP BEFORE I CAN POUR IT OUT FOR SOMEONE ELSE.” In order for me to to be the SUPER MOM I want to be for my Son; I need to TAKE CARE OF MYSELF FIRST. I’m doing this now by taking off the blindfold, and BARING IT ALL TO YOU GUYS!
LETS BREAK THE STIGMA OF TALKING ABOUT POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION. Lets support other women in their struggles so they know THEY ARE NOT ALONE!
I KNOW THERE ARE MORE OF YOU OUT THERE; WE NEED TO STAND TOGETHER, CAN ANYONE RELATE?…
Written By: Kelsey Bruegger
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